Sometimes i just want to return in the past to feel again this emotion of euphoria. This feeling to be in heaven miss me.
I remember when it happened to me, ho my god my soul was so shinning of happinnes. For the first time of my life il felt that i fanally had my place in this world. It's was magic, my biggest dream had came true,i was in heaven, really in heaven. In my head all my problems were vanished and it gave me the strange to continue my life. I was so glad, god gave me a wonderful gift , god send me a message but it wasn't the one that i thought and wanted....But i know all this was just a " dream" , a dream who was only in my head not in the reality. But i will alaways keep those magics moments in my mind, because they were so real for me. Sometimes fantasy and dreams can be the reason to existe for some persons. Just the fact to imagine few secondes or minutes to be in a imaginary world can bring hope to someone. When i want to cry when i think about the hell of this i talk to myself and i try to just remember the beautiful side of this story. All stories have their begginings and ends, but millions kind of beginning and end exist. The beggining of this story was simple, the middle was very a fairy tale and the end was a nightmare. Every page was a pleasure to read since the beggining, but the end was a big mess . The writer of the story was so hurried to reach his goal so he missed very important elements. He was blind of euphoria, he just wanted to live his dream . He was looking forward to know the answers of his questions, so he jumpped eyes closed in the hole of unknown. But i learned the most important thing in life "The secret of happiness is to be able to be happy alone". Sometimes I pray god to never meet this nightmare again, because there's nothing worse than to feel the most beautiful feeling in the world and after to feel the worse feeling a human can live, the feeling to want to die. It's so easy to believe in something who doesn't exist, it's so easy to mix dreams and reality, it's so easy to hope, it's so easy to believe in what you want, but it's so hard to have what you want!!! Please god don't destroy my soul anymore like this i suffered enought!! My tears are dried but my heart is still broken, heart is like a mirror when you break it you can stick the pieces together but it will never be perfectly fixed.